Well - here we go. The start of starting over. This is so embarrassing and humbling to be in this situation, but everyone has to start somewhere.
Sharing these before photos is a big step for me, as I've never shared photos like this of myself, in such revealing clothing. I feel like I have let it been a comfort blanket for me, knowing that no one (besides my husband) would have to see my out of shape abs, butt and thighs. But I'm tired of living like that. Not that I want to show my body off to just anyone, but I want to be healthier, more fit, and feel confident that in situation where less clothing is permitted (swimsuit, specifically), I want to feel okay about myself.
Anyways, a little bit about me. I struggled with being overweight as a kid and lost 50 lbs my junior year of high school. I stopped eating sugar and cut soda out of my diet - alongside exercising. This worked so well for me then. While I have been 7 yeas without sugar and soda, my body needs more.
I maintained my weight for a while, but once I started college I gained a little bit, but was still in really good shape. Once I got engaged, everything went down hill. The defining moment was when my wedding dress fitter told me "you cannot lose any more weight, or get in better shape or you will not fit in your wedding dress." I was crushed. I had been working out to be in better shape before I got married, and now I couldn't. It's hard for people to understand, but I was getting married in three months - no time to reorder the dress of my dreams and have it tailored again. So basically, I stopped doing what I was doing to get in better shape.
This was the start of my letting go. My dress had a lace up back, if I gained a little weight, it wouldn't make a difference. Now I've been married for 6 months and am slowly figuring this whole thing out. I'm finding myself again and am dedicated to get back into the shape I once was, and hopefully better.
Right now - being successful feels impossible, but as Nelson Mandela said "It always seems impossible until it's done." & this time - it's getting done.
HERE'S TO THE NEXT 12 WEEKS!